Back from M'sia yesterday...
This trip brings back memories...
And evoke alot of emotions...
Hmmm...
At the very least I know...
When the world denys my existence...
I know where I can turn to...
I'll keep my memories close to my heart...

Next to this blog...
Gradually this blog has quieten down...
Juz like my life bah...
I guess...
I will onli blog when I really need to bah...
Feelings often fade whenever I wanna blog...
Guess if anyone wans to hear from me...
They will find from me bah...

When the time has finally come...
I lack the courage to do it...

Before the time has come...
I always thought its other reasons...
But I guess I'm juz hiding behind these excuses...
When its finally time...
I can no longer hide behind any excuses...
Juz a walk...
I finally sense it...
Its not love...
Its gratitude...
Even though I can continue finding reasons...
But I guess I'm juz escaping reality...
There's no end to this...

Take some time bah...

Hmmm...
Kinda late for this...
But I guess it seems that another phase of my life...
Is closing to an end...
Feeling Nostalgic suddenly...
Guess I will miss this bunch of frens bah...
Its been a fun journey...
Life's changing once again...
But I guess change is inevitable...
But I hope I can still retain a few frenships bah...

Haiz...
I getting more emotionally sensitive again...
I dunno...
Every little thing...
Also sparks off an emotion...
But more often than not...
I'm thrown into my own prison again...
I'm tired...
I'm tired of the false hope...
I'm tired of people saying thanks to me when they dun mean it...
I'm tired of people who say they would be there...
I'm tired of having seem like I've had the best life...
When deep down inside...
I hav nth at all...
I'm tired of being pushed away...
I'm tired of finding myself all alone once more...
I'm tired...

I want those times again...

Dreams will eventually end...
And I guess this dream is ending soon...
Come and Go swiftly...
It happened once...
And it will happen again...
I guess I really should get used to this life I have...

Life...
Do not make a joke out of me again...
Let what comes to me...
Stay with me...
Its not funny...
Showing me a wonderful life...
Before banishing me to that lonely corner again...
Roar!

Haiz...
Can't imagine myself in this state again...
Headache...
Drop hair...
Worried...
Argh...
Forget it...
Dun tink too much...
Its Not Happening...
Dream on!
Time to go to sleep in 30 mins time...

The 15 days fight left...
Grown very much weary...
My life has gone into a slowdown...
Perhaps it would be the same after the 15 days...
Back to studies I guess...