Sunday, September 25, 2011
I've no idea how my life becomes so fucked up...
Everything is just tearing me apart from inside...
Shit just keep happening for the last few weeks...
I'm just so depressed...
I've no one to talk to...
And no one knows about it...
I think I'm going crazy...
And then again...
No one ever visit this blog now anyway...
I don't even visit this blog anymore...
I'm just here to rant about how shitty my life is...
Haiz...
Dream to live; Live to dream
7:03 PM
Monday, May 16, 2011
From best friend to friend and friend to acquaintance...
But eventually we wouldn't even say hello on the streets...
Such is the downfall of friendship...
I guess this is how it will always go...
Dream to live; Live to dream
12:41 PM
Friday, April 22, 2011
Hmmm...
Been a long time since I updated this blog...
But suddenly feel like expressing myself...
And since I have no other avenues to do so...
I guess I shall blog about it...
I just watch
this video about the different stages of a relationship...
And I guess I can relate to the video...
Missing those times...
Where you know there's someone to rely on...
Somebody that can really make your day...
Those good memories...
...
Haiz...
Fever from yesterday still haven't subsided...
Suppressing it through medication...
And last night was seriously a scary experience for me...
Shivering to almost cramping my muscles...
Never had I felt so helpless...
Never had I feared fever so much...
Luckily it was all over...
Sucks to be sick when parents are not at home...
Guess I'm not as independent as I thought...
Hopefully tonight I can rest well and enjoy my day tomorrow...
Loneliness has been a friend I wish to abandoned
but sadly it will be a part of me for long...
Dream to live; Live to dream
6:27 PM
Sunday, November 21, 2010
I don't know what's getting to me lately...
Feeling so depressed...
Feeling so stressed...
Having so much hopes placed on me...
Just heard from my friend...
They say its a privilege to be in recce...
It just means you are darned smart...
But to me...
I don't even care about that...
I just want to spend my life in NS quietly...
And now that you put me here...
My injury comes out...
And at the rate...
I probably will be OOC-ed...
And you throw me into some other vocation...
After I've mixed with this group of people...
This sucks man...
Totally...
Dream to live; Live to dream
11:26 AM
Sunday, October 31, 2010
Congratulations...
Annual fucked-up week has begun...
Start date : 28 Oct
Expected end date : 4 Nov
Damage report:
Other than the usual "everything goes against you"
And everybody PS-ing you...
This year's special is a swollen leg...
Lets see how this can get worst
(It can go a lot worse when i report back to my unit next week)
And to end off this report..
I say: "Fuck.My.Life."
Dream to live; Live to dream
4:06 PM
Sunday, October 10, 2010
Hmmm...
Been thinking quite alot...
Like everything's tat's been happening...
Ever since the day I was send to my vocation...
I kept questioning myself...
Why am I doing here?
For my whole life...
I always believe in one thing...
That is if I do my best...
I will be lead upon a road thats best for me...
A place where I can be good at being myself...
But somehow this time round...
It seem as though something went wrong somewhere...
From all that thinking...
This is what my analysis results...
Why I shouldn't be here?
1) I can't fast march
2) I'm not fit at all
3) I don't swim well (AKA Submarine)
Why I should be here?
1) When high level of fitness is not involved, I'm often motivated
2) I have quite high level of pain tolerance
3) I can be a little more observant about my surrounding
4) A "safe than sorry" type of person
5) Don't really have much 牵挂
6) Very much sacrificial
And this come into my conclusion...
More or less I kinda quite suit the job...
All the reasons that I shouldn't be here...
Some not that important, some just takes extra effort...
And even though I have my worries on how long my lower limb can take...
I guess I have to take my chances and see how much I can take...
I just hope my mind would not yield to the idea of giving up bah...
Dream to live; Live to dream
8:24 PM
Saturday, September 18, 2010
Hmm...
Here to update my status...
Just completed 1st week of training...
And seriously...
This is the army I had in army...
Freaking tough training...
By the end of the week I'm already dead-tired...
I dunno how I'm gonna survived 5 months of this...
No real motivation to push through...
But somehow I guess...
I will find one way or another to pull through bah...
If not it will only be injury that will get me out...
Bcoz no matter how tempting it might be to quit...
I guess I won't...
I guess...
Dream to live; Live to dream
11:38 PM
